Sometimes OCD makes you worry about the most ironic things. I remember when I first started with an Exposure Response Prevention (ERP) group I was worried that I wasn’t OCD-enough. I had already had a consultation session with the therapist running the group but yet I still worried that I wasn’t supposed to be there. Not in an I-Don’t-Want-To-Be-Crazy-Enough-To-Be-In-This-Group sort of way, but in a What-If-I’m-Fooling-Everyone-And-I-Don’t-Actually-Have-OCD way. Which makes no sense. My OCD was essentially making me worry that I wouldn’t be “cool” enough to fit in at OCD group therapy.
Another odd one I encountered was toward the end of my time attending the group. I started to notice improvements, and notice that I was able to catch myself early if I started new obsessions. You would think I would be elated and feel so free. Now don’t get me wrong, I am so thankful for that group, it changed my life! But for some reason I kept noticing an odd desire to hold on to a little bit of my OCD. It was almost like I didn’t know who I was without it. I worried that my OCD would completely go away (HAH!) and I would be a totally different person. And even though OCD can be very difficult and very isolating, here I was bonding with people over it and feeling like I fit in somewhere (and who doesn’t like to fit in?).
Point being: OCD makes you worry about OCD *le sigh*
What are some ironic worries that OCD has caused you to have?